Set: After Secrets and Lies

Note: This is my first Fan fic ever so please review and let me know if I should bother picking up a pen again!!

Meant To Be...?

Susan: You should tell her!

Carter: Who? (gives in) Tell her what?

Susan: That you're desparately in love with her and can't live another moment without her.

Carter: (smiles) Really?

Susan: You're hopeless

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Abby and Gallant walked along the street, heading to County to start their shifts. Gallant was chatting away by her side but she wasn't paying any attention. She was thinking about today and that stupid sexual harrassment seminar. She had been dreading it this morning but it had been kinda interesting. She had learned loads about Susan, Luka, Gallant and even Carter. Carter. She thought about his behaviour today. She had noticed the way he kept trying to compete with Luka, as if desparate for approval. She couldn't believe he had lost his temper like that. It was so out of character. She was beginning to worry about his, considering the way he was acting plus the fact that things between him and Susan seemed kinda strained. She didn't really like the fact that he had started dating Dr Lewis, but she didn't want to see him get hurt.

"So, what time are you on til Abby?" Gallant asked.

"Erm... I'm on a 12 hour. Off at 8 am." She wrapped her coat tighter round her body. "You?"

She didn't listen to his answer. Her thoughts drifted back to what Susan had said earlier. Was Carter really still hung up on her? Probably not. 'It doesn't matter!' She thought, 'I don't care'

Yeah Right!! Who was she kidding? She thought about how good he looked when he was fencing. So gorgeous! She wanted to talk to him, tell him how she felt but...No! I'm over him. He's with Susan and I don't care! She repeated this to herself over and over again hoping it would sink in.

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John, meanwhile was headed hom. Should he tell her? He knew he still loved her it's just...waht would he say?

'Well hi there Abby! How's it going? Fine? Good. Oh, by-the-way, did I mention I was in love with you? No? Well there you go!'

He shook his head. Yeah John, real smooth He promised he would tell her tomorrow. I mean, what's the worst that could happen?

Oh God!

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"Okay you guys," Abby yawned walking by the Nurses station, "I'm gone! See ya later"

"Yeah bye Abby" Chuny said

Abby pushed open the ER doors and was bit by the icy Chicago air. She pulled her coat around her and lit up a cigarette. It ha been a long, really slow night. She was back on again in a few hours.

"Hey!"

Abby looked up, hearing a familiar voice. "Hey Carter. How's it going?"

"Yeah okay"

She reached up and touched the cut he got from Luka. She felt a jolt of electricity go through her as she touched his cheek. He felt it too and pulled back slightly before relaxing.

"Looks nasty." She whispered, barely controlling her voice.

He looked down at her, "It's fine, really"

"Hm?" She looked up into his eyes. He was so close, she thought 'I could just lean up and...kiss him' John was looking down thinking exactly the same thing. But he knew this wasn't the time, or the place. He was gonna tell her how he felt before he did anything about it. He broke their look.

"Erm, you wanna have some lunch later?" He asked.

Abby shook herself and looked away trying to hide the red colour flushing to her chheks. She tried to focus on what he was saying.

"Um... I've got some stuff to do so..."

"Look don't worry about, some other time" he unsuccessfully tried to hide his disappointment. "So what you up to? It's gotta be pretty great if it's worth missing lunch with me." He said attempting to cover his disappointment with a joke. Abby laughed too.

"Yeah, right! I'm actually moving back into my apartment." She saw the worried look on his face. "Don't worry, Brian's gone. He moved out - finally!" She noticed John looked pleased.

"So... You won't be living with living with Luka anymore?" He grinned

"No. It was just a temporary anyway."

"Yeah, right. Well...I gotta go" he signalled towards the door.

"Okay. I'll see you later - k?" She turned and walked off after Carter nodded.

'I am gonna tell her, I am gonna tell her!' He pushed open the door and was sucked into the madness that was the ER