Abby lay in bed trying to sleep. It was no use. As she tossed and turned her words came drifting back. 'How can I blame him for forgetting my birthday? That was the day Sobricki was brought in. He had other - more important - things on his mind! No wait! He had plenty of time before that to say something but he was to busy with Susan!' She thought. She wished she could hate Susan but during the seminar they had kind of become friends. She envied her so much. Even though it was over, she had been allowed to kiss John and hold him and... 'No! You are NOT thinking about this!' But she was. She couldn't stop. She loved John and wondered why it was so hard for her to just tell him. She kicked the covers off. She remembered the look in his eyes when she yelled at him. Shock. She longed to touch his face, to hold him and tell him how much she missed him but every time she thought about doing it she heard a voice saying 'Don't be a fool. He doesn't love you. He'll just break your heart!' She knew she just had to trust him. She turned violently, hair sticking to her face, to look at the clock.
2:45am
She was on in about 3 hours.
"This is ridiculous!" She muttered, turning on the lamp. "I've gotta sort this out or I'll never get to sleep."
She picked up the phone and punched in the number. It rang a couple of times then the answering machine kicked in. She knew he wouldn't be home, she wouldn't have called otherwise. She knew if she heard his voice she'd break.
BEEP
"Yeah...um...It's me. I just...couldn't sleep and I wanted to apologise for what I said earlier...You've been a great friend. Look I know I shouldn't be saying this to your machine but...I really do think we should give each other some space. I just wish all this crap between us would go away and we could be us again. Anyway...um...bye!"
She hung up quickly. 'Damn' she thought. She hadn't meant to say that much. Just sorry, seeya! Never mind. She turned over, determined to go to sleep.