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This, my friends, is the final chapter of meant to be. Before I write it, I wanna thank a couple of people. Firstly, I wanna thank everyone who reviewed - Em, Cristallo, lyns, charlotte and all the others who reviewed. If it wasn't for you guys I would have stopped writing this a long time ago. (Maybe I shouldn't be thanking you then, lol) Secondly I wanna thank my little cousin Sarah-Lou, whom I force fed every single chapter! Sorry! That's about it! I could mention everyone else I know but I'll save that for my Oscar's acceptance speech!!

Anyway, just...thank you for sticking with me! Writing this is starting to drive me mad now, but I'll probably miss having to think up chapter ideas. Part of me wants it to go on forever. Also, I'll miss writing Angry Abby - that was fun!!

So on with the chapter...

Summary: Are they meant to be?

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Abby ran down the stairs two at a time. She thought that shouting at Carter would get it out of her system, help her move on, but it just left her feeling guilty and even more alone. No, this was the right thing to do. Even if they couldn't be together...she had to tell him how she felt. She owed him that at least. So she ran, faster than she thought possible. She had to catch him before he left the hospital. If she didn't tell him tonight, she might lose her nerve. The pounding of her feet on the stairs was matched by the pounding of her heart. She...couldn't...lose...him. She began gasping for breath, her lungs felt like they were on fire. 'God! I have to start working out more,' she thought. She ignored the pain, her mind focused on one thing and one thing only - finding Carter.

She ran down the last flight of stairs, into the ER. She spun round, scanning the crowd. Where the hell was he? She spotted a groups of nurses and ran over to them. As she stopped she doubled over,

"Have....you seen...Carter," she gasped. They shook there heads. Damn! What if he had left already? She wasn't gonna give up hope - not yet. She ran through the ER, nearly bumping into the wicked witch herself,

"Watch where you're going Abby," Weaver yelled.

"Oh bite me!" Abby bit back. She would regret it later - Weaver would make sure of that - but she couldn't be bothered with the chief right now. She had more important things on her mind. She ran up to the admit desk,

"Hey Frank...where's Carter?"

"What, do I look like his keeper?" He bit out in his usual sarcasm.

"Frank!" She yelled, firmly causing people to turn and look at him.

"Fine, fine," he puffed, "Try over by exam one. If he's not there, then he's away home."

Abby ran off. Please let him be there. Please let him be there. The door was in sight now, she was nearly there. She had just about made it when a porter slammed a gurney into her side. She doubled over in pain, landing on her butt. The guy rushed over,

"Are you okay? God! I didn't see you. Are you hurt? Should I get you a doctor?"

She straightened up slowly, a fierce pain shooting up her right side. Damn porter. She pushed him away,

"Get off me! I'm fine." She hobbled as fast as she could the rest of the way, holding onto her side and burst through the door to exam one,

"Carter!" She stopped suddenly, realising there was no one in the room except a male patient.

"Sorry I think you got the wrong room. I'm Will Palmer."

She slowly felt herself crumble as she tipped her head back to look at the ceiling. She had missed him...it was too late. She slumped in a chair behind the door and buried her head in her hands. Maybe she had been making a mistake. Maybe she wasn't supposed to tell him. This was god's way of telling her they weren't supposed to be together.

"Are you okay Miss?" The patient asked politely.

"No, no I'm not okay." She barely finished the sentence as someone entered the room,

"Well Mr Palmer your labs are back..." Abby pulled her head up sharply as the voice continued addressing the patient. When he didn't seem to notice she was there she coughed slightly,

"Um...Dr Carter. Can I...can I talk to you for a moment." He brought his head up from the chart and saw her for the first time. There was a brief look of joy before his face clouded.

"I'm a little busy right now, can't it wait?" He asked politely, talking as if she were one of his patients.

"It's important." Her eyes begged him to listen. He had to listen. He, however chose to ignore it. He began speaking again, forgetting they were not alone. What could she possibly want? To tell him just how much she didn't want him, again?

"Look Abby, I can't deal with this right now. Can't you just yell at me later?" He didn't try to hide the bitterness in his voice.

"Fine!" She turned and began walking to the door. If he wouldn't listen it was his lose. She had tried her best. As she reached the door she spun back around and walked over to him, she had to make him listen. She spoke a little louder than intended, "You know what? It's not fine! Dammit John, do you have any idea how much you annoy me? You can be so stubborn and pig headed sometimes. You can be a huge pain in the ass and you have this ability to just...drive me crazy!"

"Gee, thanks Abby!" He said sarcastically. What was she doing? Rubbing salt in the wounds by listing all his bad points? He stood staring at her, challenging her to continue. She paused briefly before continuing, her voice softer,

"But you make my stomach flip every time I see you. And I know it sounds stupid and cliché, but seeing you really does make my day worthwhile. I was angry and hurt when you started dating Susan. I thought I had lost you. And...I don't know...I wasn't willing to believe what you said because I thought you were on the rebound. I kept pushing you away, not because I didn't want to be with you , but because I was scared. I mean, what would happen if we broke up? I'd lose the most important thing in my life and I really don't think I could cope with that. I'm sorry for freakin' but you're different to all the other guys I've been with, because I know that you can break my heart. No one has ever had that power over me before. Hell not even Richard and I was married to the guy! When I saw him at the charity event he knew how I felt about you. He could see it. He said that I never once looked at him the way I look at you. And...well...I'm not scared anymore. Well I am, but it's not of being with you, it's of being without you. I don't know what I'd do if you weren't in my life. I know I'm rambling and probably making no sense. I suck at things like this. But what I'm trying to say is...well...I love you. Okay? I love you. And I know I didn't put it as eloquently as you, but there it is."

She immediately felt herself relax. Everything that had been bothering her, everything she'd been keeping locked up inside was finally out in the open. And it felt good. Even if they couldn't be together, it felt good to admit what she felt. A weight had been lifted and she could get on with her life now. She watched Carter for a response,

"No, that was..good." He breathed. They just stood there watching each other. She finally realised what she had put him through when he told her how he felt. She finally understood the phrase 'the silence is deafening'. She sighed softly and turned to leave. She looked back briefly as she pushed the door open and walked through the ER.

Carter just stood there. He couldn't speak. She loved him. He realised how she felt two weeks ago. It wasn't that she didn't love him. She was just overwhelmed at his admission, kind of like he was now. He watched her walk away and realised that this was it, act now or he would lose her forever. He looked at his patient, finally realising there was someone else in the room.

"Well what are you waiting for? Go after her," he said, smiling.

"Yes sir," Carter ran out the door, towards Abby. He stopped her just as she reached the exit. He grabbed her arm and spun her round to face him. She looked dejected.

"Hey, where are you going?" He asked, smiling.

"Well..I just wanted to let you know how I felt and..." She looked down at her feet, unwilling to look at his eyes.

"And what? Now you're gonna run away? I thought that was my speciality." She looked up at him, her grin matching his own. She shoved his shoulder gently,

"Shut u..." She felt his lips on hers instantly. Soft, warm. She closed her eyes as the room began to spin slightly. She clung to Carter to stop herself from falling. His hands held her waist, supporting her. Or maybe supporting himself, she didn't know. Everyone else disappeared, leaving only her and Carter. She felt tingles up and down her spine as their lips brushed together. Moulding together perfectly as if they were meant to kiss each other for the rest of their lives...and that was fine with her. She smiled into his mouth. This was everything she could ever want from a kiss. And it was so much more than that, it was a promise. They would be okay.

Chuny and Haleh stood open mouthed, watching Carter and Abby. Chuny chuckled lightly,

"It's about time they got it together!" She nudged Haleh,

"Amen to that!"

Carter pulled back slowly, needing to see her face. Abby slowly opened her eyes, trying to focus on the man in front of her. He brushed a strand of hair out of her eyes. He grinned, "I love you." He whispered.

"Yeah. I love you too." She paused, her arms still round his neck, just looking at him. No more pain or confusion in his eyes, but a look of complete happiness and love. A look mirrored in her own. They'd be okay. She smiled slightly before asking, "Why...why didn't you give up on me? I mean I must have told you to leave me alone like a million times..."

"I knew the Carter charm would break you down." She giggled slightly. He looked at her, a serious expression on his face. "I just knew."

"Knew what?"

"You and me. We're meant to be." She smiled again. This was love. She knew it. She should have realised it a long time ago.

"Yeah, I know." And she reach up to kiss him again. Meant to be...she liked the sound of that.

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A/N: So that's it folks - the end of my very first fanfic! What did you think? I just read it back and I'm not too sure about it. I might re-write it later. I'm faced with a tough choice now that I don't have this fic to write - I can either get a life or write more fics! Ooh that's a hard one! Anyway, thanks for reading! Please review either by clicking below or by e-mail me at: cheeza@supanet.com